What does it do?

One day you're lounging around you're house and having three hour long Sunday afternoon naps and the next you're arguing because one spouse isn't going to be home in time so you don't have to take three screaming kids to Taekwondo. 

Kids. What does that do to a marriage? Furthermore what does having special needs kids do to a marriage?

Fun. We have forgotten what that is. It might now be defined as your child only screaming for two hours at bedtime. Or maybe it's defined by what it's not, convincing children who hate having their hair washed to wash their hair. 

We don't even know how to do a night out anymore. What do we even do with some time we might have to ourselves? 

Maybe we sent one spouse with two kids because we had to stay behind with one. Or maybe your spouse didn't come because they were busy providing for their family. 

We forgot that everything didn't need to be debated and feelings don't always need to be understood. 

I can't count the times I've asked that he see things from my point of view. 

But the truth is, I shouldn't need that validation. Because that's what it is I am actually asking for. Why do I NEED him to allow my feelings? Why do I REQUIRE him to tell me I'm right?

When did I stop being one person. When did I stop having a marriage with my husband just because I have a family? 

When did we stop having fun just because tomorrow we have to be parents?

That stops now. And yes, I'll feel guilty, because being a parent isn't about the fun you get to go out and have..... But really, what is life without fun? 

XX,

The Guilty Mom